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On May 18 ,1997 my mom had her 10th child.. I was the youngest baby girl of the family . Being to the youngest girl , I got spoiled the most .. But after her 11th child she was diagnosed with sugar high blood pressure ..
She work full time everyday at a chicken factory just to support her kids . She’d pick up every penny and saved it . We weren’t those rich type people . We were the ghetto family surviving in Canada .She never bought anything for herself .She usually waited till Christmas . That was when she would get something nice . A Couple years after being diagnosed with sugar high blood pressure she got cancer . Since she had sugar high blood pressure and cancer, She had to eat certain things at a certain time to help her blood and her heart . But I remember she had salt one night and her heart started hurting . I could not believe what happened . She got up and said ” Gaoly , My heart is hurting so much . I feel like I’m going to just faint”. I told her to rest for a bit but then my mom got up and clean the whole house .
My dad got got married to his 3 wife in Thailand in 2001 . That was the year he stole 1000$ from my mom to fly to Thailand to see his wife . He also got divorced with his first wife but still living with my mom (2nd wife).
Every single day , the old ladies would call her for advice and for help . My mom always fought strong and never gave up , even it hurts.
In the year 2007, She was force to move 3 cities away from me . She moved in a retirement place for a month so she could get surgery.
The first week she was there she got sugary on her heart. The second week she was the she got surgery on her Lungs . EVERY SINGLE week she would have to get surgery .For one whole month . When she came back she stop working at the factory but she would go to the garden to work and she would clean , cook and save money .
In the year 2008 , My mom struggled so much with everything.but She was still up cleaning ,cooking, gardening, even giving the O.G’s advices .She work to hard , it was unbelievable. On April 10 ,6:30 … Many people visited her . Then she wouldn’t wake up .So my Uncle called 9-1-1 and got help . I could her people crying from inside of the house but I wasn’t too sure what was happening ..Until I saw my mom on the ambulance bed. I dropped and cried in front of my lawn and the people that was gathering around from neighborhood . I saw my grandma and she said “Don’t worry . Your mom is strong and she fine .. Let her and god fight this “. 2 hours later to went to the hospital to see her .She couldn’t talk at all.I could see her trying to talk but she
just couldn’t . I cried and held her hand really tight and I saw one tear come out of her eye . I new till then she was scared . Then when l was about to leave the hospital she spoke .. She said ” It’s okay Gaoly . You are strong. And no matter what happens ,I will still love you . ” she said ” bye ” and ” I love you”.. And I said the same thing .My sister use to go to a high school that was beside the hospital .So, she would visit her everyday and bring her fresh food .
April 16 . 2008 5:00am.The month my dad went to Thailand . I woke to a loud crying noise from my grandma saying ” My daughter is not answering me .. She won’t wake up!!”. I had the choice to either go to school , or to stay home that day but I new what my mom would want me to do .So I went to school . By the Time I got to the school ,My brother came with his bike. He grab and said ” GAOLY YOU HAVE TO GO HOME RIGHT NOW.!” .. I was so scared .I ran home so fast not even thinking about the cars, while running across the roads. When I got home . There were HUNDREDS of Hmong people at our house .While waiting for my ride to the hospital ,My dad called…For the first time I herd my dad cry . He was saying that he was ” sorry ” and that he’s booking his flight .When I left to hospital . I didn’t believe that my mom passed away until , I entered the room she was in . I cried … EVERYBODY cried!!. That room was filled with sadness and tears.. I couldn’t believe it. I was right beside her and my little brother . I grab her hand and said ” Even though I’m young and not mature yet.. I promise I’ll take care of my little brother, till he’s old enough to take care of himself..I promise that I will be the one to climb the counters to get him medicine when he’s sick. I will try and I’ll stay strong “.
That week was the end of my happiness for me . I would cry everyday for 3 straight months. I did nothing but cry …
When I went to the store or school and i saw a girl with her mom , I’d cry . Feeling embarrassed,missing my mom and wishing I was like them . When I hear people making “yo mamma jokes ” I’d cry because I know they didn’t have respect for their mom.
When I herd my dad talk on the phone with my step mom , I’d cry knowing that he was the guy who was lucky enough to get married to my mom and then turn her down like this .. And not seeing her on her death bed.
My mom was my biggest role model and she still is . Losing my mom was my most biggest fear .
I learned that “Your road to heaven is paved ” meaning you have to go through challenges by your self, because if you keep on depending on others you will eventually fail.
Yes , I became sensitive and shy . But as years passed I know I am strong and confident . This experience was heart breaking . But it changed me in both good and bad ways .
When my mom passed away she gave all her savings and money to all her kids .. We each received 30,000 from her …. That’s how much I know she loved us..
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